기도 중의 뜬금없는 우문 .
"예수님께서는 큰 교회 건물 내 가득한 사람들의 예배를 더 prefer 하세요? 아니면  향유옥합을 깨뜨려 예수님께 붓고 예수님의 발을 닦은 여인을 더 prefer 하세요?" 
왜 그런 질문이 떠올랐는지는 모르겠다.  예수님께서, audible 하게 들리도록 답하실리 만무하다. 그런 특별한 은사나 경험을 바라는 맘도 없다. 
어쩄거나 어림짐작으로 예수님의 답은 "case by case 이니라," 가 아닐지. 큰 교회 내 가득한 사람들이 어떤 사람들이냐에 따라서 달라지지 않을까 모르겠다.
 
예수님께서도 제자들의 발을 씻기지 않으셨는가?
백프로 신성을 가지시기도 하셨지만, 백프로 인간 예수이기도 하셨던 예수님께서 향유옥합 여인의 행위에서 inspire 받으신 건 아닐까?
예수님을 face-to-face 만날 때까지는 그 내막을 알 수 없는 일이다.
 
세족식에 대해서 찾아보니, 세족식을 maundy 라고 하고, 세족식이 열린 목요일을 Maundy Thursday 라고 한단다.  Maundy Thursday 라는 term 은 처음 들었다.  Maundy Thursday 에 일어난 일: (1) The Last Supper (2) The foot-washing fo the apostles (3) 겟세마네 동산 (4) The arrest of Jesus. 
 
세족식의 의미 by NT wright

The footwashing scene means what it means within this larger story. It is a small but cosmically significant piece of new-creational performance art, launching a new people marked out by humble, self-giving love. Jesus’ symbolic actions were small but powerful seeds, designed to grow and change the world. The very existence of this strange new family constitutes the standing rebuke, from creation’s true God, to the tyrants and bullies of the world.
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Within the gospels’ recounting of that ultimate Passover, one scene stands out with special poignancy and power. John’s gospel displays deft artistry and fathomless theology throughout, but especially in the footwashing scene in chapter 13. In a few lines we glimpse a tableau both intimate and touching and scary and dangerous. Having begun his gospel with the all-creative Word becoming flesh and revealing God’s glory, John begins the shorter second half with an acted parable of the same thing. Jesus removes his outer garments and kneels down to wash the disciples’ feet, summing up all that is to come in this act of divine humility, of loving redemption, of cleansing for service. For John, as indeed throughout the New Testament, Jesus’ vocation to rescue the world from its plight, and in so doing to reveal the divine glory in action, is focused, symbolized, encoded in an action simultaneously dramatic, fraught with cosmic significance, and gentle, tender with human emotion. If you want to understand the great mysteries of Christian theology, of Trinity, Incarnation, and atonement itself, you could do worse than spend time with this scene.
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The theology of the cross is only ultimately complete when it issues in the footwashing, fruitbearing and world-transforming mission of Jesus’ followers.
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When Jesus wanted to explain to his followers what his death would mean he didn’t give them a theory, he gave them a meal on the one hand and a dramatic action on the other. The Word became flesh, and it is in flesh – his flesh, and then, worryingly, our flesh – that the truth is revealed. God forgive us that we have answered rationalistic scepticism with rationalistic fideism. The Word – the Logos, the ultimate Reason in Person – became flesh. It is in the flesh that the world was saved; it is in the flesh that the glory was, and is, revealed.

 
Maundy Thursday 에 관한 또 다른 글

평소 리더쉽 (Leadership) 에 크게 관심이 있는 편은 아닌데, 여러 사람들이 함께 일하는 작은 dental setting 에서도 리더쉽이 중요하다는 걸 느끼면서 몇 권의 책들을 훑어봤다.  Reading 에서 얻은 정보 몇 가지 정리.  Harvard business review 의 Must reads 시리즈 2-3 권을 읽었는데, 거기 나온 정보를 다른데서도 쉽게 찾을 수 있었음 (퍼 오기는 다른 website 에서 퍼옴)

1.  Six Goleman Leadership styles

(2, 3, 4, 6) 의 리더쉽 스타일이 positive culture 를 조성하고, 1 이나 5 의 리더쉽은 negative culture 가 될 가능성이 크다 함. 

Commonly referred to as "directive" or “commanding” leadership, it’s best to use coercive leadership when you need to fix a problem quickly and effectively. For example, dealing with a difficult employee or ‘putting out a fire’ at work.

You may know this one as “visionary” leadership. Authoritative leaders give their team a general direction and goal to achieve, but let them reach that goal in whichever way they deem appropriate.

An affiliative leader is all about the people. They want to create a positive work environment for their team members and are big on giving praise. The downside, though, is that the team rarely receives actionable advice or correction, leaving team members feeling confused and leaderless.

Under democratic leadership (also known as “participative” leadership), every team member has a valued voice that management genuinely wants to hear from. These workplaces are typically more flexible and collaborative, but that comes with a price: Longer, more frequent meetings to discuss everyone’s opinions and hash out ideas.

If you’re a pacesetting leader, you walk the walk and talk the talk daily. You know the importance of setting a good example for your team and having high standards for the work they produce.

Much like its name suggests, coaching leaders focus on the personal development of their team members, rather than just meeting work-related quotas or sales goals. They work one-on-one with their employees to achieve excellence, which works well for employees who are open to improvement.

2.  Leader 와 Manager 의 차이

3. Level 5 Leadership

Who exactly is a Level 5 leader? Collins describes Level 5 leader as Humility + Will = Level 5. They are the nurturing leaders who do not want credit but want success to sustain over a longer period of time, long after they are gone.
Level 5 leaders are modest, shy and fearless and possess the capability to transform an organization from good to great without portraying themselves as wizards with magic wands. They prefer talking about the company and the contribution of other people but rarely about their role or achievements.

4. What distinguishes great leaders from merely good ones? Emontional Intelligence

https://acarthustraining.com/documents/What_makes_a_leader-by_Daniel_Goleman.pdf
 

하늘이 정한 뜻을 알게 된다는 지천명이라는데,
눈 감고 손 모으고 기도할 때 나오는 첫 마디가
"하나님 전 잘 모르겠습니다," 이다.
혼자서 생각할 때는 이전에 비해 뭔가 더 아는 거 같기도 한데,
하나님 앞에 고개 조아리면 터져 나오는 "전 잘 모르겠습니다"
하나님을 아는 지식도, 세상에 대해서도, 인간에 대해서도, 스스로에 대해서도 그러하다. 
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